Another frustrating day

This afternoon I swam a workout alone while the combined CW and U of M team swam the same workout in the other pool.  This will be a difficult arrangement.  I find myself looking over toward the team, basically longing for the good-ol-days (last week) when we were all equal.  Now I feel like a 2nd class citizen, getting the leftovers of workouts and the coaching interaction.

I'm trying to find the good in the situation but it's difficult.  One pro is that I get my own lane in a fantastic pool each day, something most Masters swimmers would drool over.  Another pro is that have more flexibility in my day to day schedule since I'm certainly not required to be at practice... ironically it's the opposite.  The benefits seem to stop there unfortunately.  I will not be traveling with the team for a holiday training trip to the Florida Keys, a trip I was looking forward to.

Today was my first day using my legs during practice in almost a week, I did some arm workouts after my knee injury to let it heal.  It felt like I had to wake them out of a coma.  I was not fast at all today.  Swimming 50y race pace around :27 seconds... really quite pathetic for me.  Without anybody to push me, I will have to embrace the self motivation power I used to have all the time while training alone.  It's a tough transition, one I hadn't planned on making at this point in my training with CW.

My practices seem to be more annoying than anything, I find myself wishing I could just be back with the team, it's a major distraction.  I'm tempted to just train at entirely separate times than the team.  Somehow it seems less painful emotionally to just do my own practice without the team in the water.  It will allow me to just focus on my workout and not worry about what I'm missing out on 20 yards away in the other pool.

I'll get through it.